30.

I turned 30 last February 12. Entering the BIG 3-0 wagon. It was a big deal for me when I was in college. I imagined myself that at this age, I have my own pre-school, finished my MA in SPED, have my own family (with 2 kids and counting) while actively serving in the community. Oh well, big dreams. Nothing came true. But I don’t regret it. For my life now is better than I imagined it to be!

At 30…

I have experienced working as an HR Assistant, ESL Teacher to Koreans, Admin. Officer and Pre-school Teacher before landing at the job I am called to do – a Fulltime Pastoral Worker a.k.a Missionary – celebrating my 6th year!

I have finished college and education units, became a licensed professional Teacher, took up units in MA SPED and now, on my 2nd year as a Bosconian, taking up Masters in Religious Studies, major in Catechetics.

I have literally traveled around the world by going to Latin America,  US, Taiwan, Spain, Portugal and Singapore.

I have met a bunch of crazy people, young and old, with different passions and come from all walks of life. sometimes I wonder, how did I become friends with them? Probably because we share the same amount of  craziness. :D

I have been in love many times (or thought I was), met a few potentials, also had a few heart breaks but still hoping and looking forward to find my one true love, chosen and given by THE Love-Giver Himself.

I have experienced death many times – death of my Mom and an almost death moment for me – that made me less afraid of it and makes me more compassionate to those who are experiencing death in their lives.

My life now is far different from what I have imagined it would be at 30, but hey! I am experiencing a great life possible for me! And I know that it is not yet done; the best is yet to come…. For God is still not yet finished making my life more beautiful! And I can’t wait what else He could still give me!

Thank you Lord for the life I have right now. For the blessings and challenges, victories and defeats, sickness and health. Thank you for every person I met, every moment I experienced, every lesson I learned. If my life is already beautiful now, I know Lord that you have a lot more in store for me! And I am much excited of what else you can do FOR me, IN me and WITH me! I am yours for the taking, Lord! Thank you and I love you!

Celebrations on my 30th birthday!

love. love. love. <3

love. love. love. <3

*Maan and Jermer were absent this day.

THESE made MY day!

THESE made MY day!

Thank you Marie! You really know what will make me SOOOO happy, I literally cried over it!

And a home-made dinner by my bro, Kirby. I wasn’t able to take pictures of it, coz Dad was already hungry. But here is my first pic of my birthday, taken by my little bro.

 

30!

30!

Thank you to everyone who remembered my birthday, sent their greeting through Facebook, Twitter, and SMS; for the little cake (in the last picture) given by my girl-friends – Joey, Roxy, Anne and Chloe; and for all the prayers and masses offered for me on my special day. And to my upper household – Ate Gay, Joey, Angel, Chloe, Maan, Kate, Kuh, Roxy, Sweet – for the honoring. Pagalingan sa english? :D

I feel so loved Lord. Thank you for being the source of my love! <3

New year, new beginnings!

Happy New Year everyone!

This will be a quick post since I’m still in the middle of my major room clean-up. But can’t miss this day not to post.

New year celebration is something I always look forward to, third to Christmas and my birthday. It gives me the chance to forget the old and bring in new things in my life. It allows me to strive to be a better person and to dream big that the year to come will be better than last year. It gives me hope that the Lord will finally hear my unanswered prayers and bring me closer to Him, than ever.

I am very excited this year. I envisioned my 2013 as a year of changes, of faith-testing situations and of bold decisions and choices. It will be another roller-coaster ride with God, but more amazing! I look forward for new people to meet, lovely places to conquer and unforgettable moments to cherish.

Oh Lord, this year is for You and all about YOU!!! Show me your power, grant me your grace and cover me with your love as I journey this year with you. That in everything, I will choose You. That I may always reflect You. And that my life be pleasing to You.

Thank you for a wonderful 2012. I’ll write about it in another post. Journey with me as we unravel the path that the Lord has for each one of us this year!

Cheers to 2013! The best is yet to come! :)

hello 2013! excited for you!

hello 2013! excited for you!

Celebrating life after an almost death

Today last year, I almost had a face-to-face encounter with death. It was a result of overestimation, wrong decision and plain stupidity.

We were in Mindoro when it happened. It was supposed to be a victorious morning for all of us, after our successful Christmas party with the Mangyans. We went swimming in the river. Over-estimation of my ability to swim and my courage to experience adventure, almost lead me and another colleague to death. Instead of able to flow with the rapids, I flowed in the middle of a whirlpool which I couldn’t get out. Yes, what we see in movies are true: dark underwater, flashes of memories, hands need to put up the water while trying to gasp for air and shout “tulong!”… Yes, I had experienced them all. I thought I was going to die. I was resolved to that fact when I felt tired of trying to  swim and reach the top of the water. I remembered saying the Apostles Creed and asking forgiveness for all my sins. I even said a prayer for my family and the people I’m going to leave behind. I really thought it was my time to die. But the Lord had other plans. Just when I thought I already reached the pit, He sent my boss to rescue me. Even if it was an accident that he slipped on the waters and realized how deep it was, I still believed that it was God who pushed him to save me.

 

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So many things happened a year after. Because of that incident, I learned how to value life more. To be cautious with the decisions I make. To really lived the accountability I have towards my team mates. I saw life as fun, but after that incident, it brought me to the next level of maturity and seriousness in life. I just can’t decide out of adventure anymore, but I have learned to decide out of right calculation and discernment of the situation. I just can’t decide just like that because it is fun for me, but I have to consider if it will also bring fun to the people around me. I just can’t decide the way I decide when I was younger – carefree, spontaneous and indifferent to the consequences – because I had almost cost a life of another and it might happen again if I’ll not be careful.

Until now, I am not proud of what really happened. I still feel uncomfortable when people joke about it. It’s not easy to accept the fact that I risked another person’s life. But I’m trying to get over it. Step by step.  And one step I took is to face my fear and trauma on water: I swam today! Very liberating experience! I continue to ask the Lord that in time, I’ll get over all my trauma brought by this experience. And that I may learn how to live fully this 2nd life He has given me. All for Him. Because of Him.

Tara, swimming na tayo! =p

KFL team went to Mindoro!