Life is so short.


It has been 5 days since we rushed my uncle to the ICU. I am assigned as the night shift watcher while my dad and auntie are the day shifters. Before the stroke, my uncle was even doing his laundry while taking his bet for the lottery. No symptoms of any sickness. It was one of those ordinary days.

During his first night, he stayed in the ER and we have witnessed 2 deaths already – a suicide in the morning and a heart attack in the evening. Then, a while ago, while a family was feeding their patient, she just stopped breathing. And now dead.

What do these say? Life is short. We’ll never know when or how we will die. I guess we just have to prepare ourselves. How? By living an amazing life. With no regrets. So when God calls us to go back to Him, we’re ready to leave the world to be with Him.

So much for a first entry of the year. Haha

Happy feast day to the saint who always made me sing everyday! I love you St. Joseph!


After more than a month of praying my earlier post, two good opportunities came to me this month. I am already inclined to say yes to the first opportunity when the second one came. I am considering both. Discerning which one is God’s will for me.

I believe that change is good now and then. It creates  a new perspective of things around you. It allows you to celebrate new beginnings and reflect on the chapter you just have ended.

I already experienced a big change in my life early this year and now, again, God is asking me to jump off with Him so we can fly together. The (good) problem for me now is: TO WHERE, MY LORD?

The trip this morning got my brain cells working extra and made my hormones excited for the opportunity. Honestly, it is very enticing. I wanted to say YES the moment I was asked THE question. And yet, I know in my heart that I shouldn’t decide based on my emotions alone. It is a process that I have to go through, purifying my intentions and desires, aligning it to the will of the Lord.

I do not know why the Lord is giving me these two good opportunities NOW, but I know that whatever my choice will be, it is still good for He will bless my decision. May His will be done.




YOU will find ME.

It was just after the JMJ Rio opening mass. My two friends (a Singaporean and a Timorese) already found their flags and had a group picture with their people. We were on our way home and was wondering how can I be able to see the CFC YFL and CFC SFL sub-groups among these 3 million crowd. It’s already late, and people are in a hurry to go home. I said a prayer of hope to see them. I didn’t know how or would that be possible. But the Lord knows the deepest desires of our hearts. Just when we were going out of Copacabana, I saw Joy Aguila behind a tree. I blinked thrice to see if it’s them. I went towards their group; so happy to see them after a week in a strange new land! Praise God for them!

I thought that was it. After all the fun and drama with the CFC YFL sub-group, we headed to the Metro station to go home. While walking, I heard a familiar voice giving instructions in Tagalog… then I saw Jermer Cruz and the CFC SFL sub-group walking hurriedly! It was just a “hi-hello-ingat-happy to see you” moment for us! But still, the Lord allowed us to see each other! 3 million people. Who has ever thought that you will find your friends among these sea of people without contact or technology helping you? Only through and by God that it became possible.

And if this is possible, I know that among the hundreds of people in my life and billions of people in the world… HE will also find me – in God, asking Him the direction to me! <3

LOVE found me in Rio!


That’s how I can describe my World Youth Day experience in Brazil. I am found by LOVE again in Rio.



Love for Latin America.

My first mission area was this continent where I fell in love with the missionary life. And in Rio, I fell in love again with the Latinos – their passion for life and fire in their faith! Very contagious!



Love for service.

I went to Rio as a WYD volunteer. Being of service to the pilgrims is my way of thanksgiving to God for the wonderful life and transformation He did to me after WYD Madrid. To stand for more than 6 hours during shift, be on call always when in need, missing other activities just to go to your shift and always on your positive side after a long day… the service for others made me less think of myself so I can share Christ more.


Love for the Catholic Church.

The universality of our faith was very evident with the different cultures coming together to celebrate God’s love and faithfulness in our lives! Worshipping in different languages but to one God! Seeing the Pope, able to be of service to the Cardinals and share stories of faith from different cultures and organizations. It affirmed me that no matter where you are, whatever language you speak, we all speak the same language of love from God shared in our love for others.

These “loves” allowed me to experience God in a different way. Being apart from our group and literally doing this journey alone with strangers was scary at first; but along the journey, it allowed me to see God’s hand working in big and small ways, affirming me that this backpacker adventure with Him is all about renewing my passion to serve and deepening my love story with my only love – Jesus Christ!

It is a one heck of an adventure that I will never forget, and hoping that the lessons and experience will be translated in my own life  – so that others may also experience the love of Jesus the way I did.

“Everything is possible for one who has faith.” (Mk.9:23)

A breath of fresh air.

Sometimes, life gets too crowded with a long list of things to do, on top of your other issues and personal concerns.

And when this happens, you (might) tend to lose yourself in the process.

So, I met up with my best friend and pour my heart out.

Just what I needed to do.

To go back to the people who knew you well, who witnessed your old and new, who were there from the start.

Thanks besp for that soul-full afternoon. The life-changing conversations and spontaneous food trips always win the best in us. God bless our friendship for many more years to come. :)

sinong bespren mo doon? syempre, ikaw lang! *wink*


Today, Mommy should have celebrated her 60th birthday. I remember us planning this day when I was confined in the hospital in 2009. She wanted everyone to be there – relatives, classmates, friends, household, ka-sisters and ka-brothers… the list was never-ending! She wanted to do it in our house and I was telling her that there would not be enough space for everyone. “Eh di pasara natin yung daan” was all her reply.

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I woke up early today feeling excited for Mom’s 60th. If she was still here, I bet, she would have been awake since dawn and busy texting her kumares and kumpares to thank them for their love for her and invite them to our house. But since that won’t be happening, I just cooked spaghetti for us and packed some for our merienda when we visit her in Pampanga in the afternoon.

It was just my dad, my siblings and niece who were supposed to be Mom’s visitors today, but her aunt and 2 cousins, plus the carpenters went as well. So, with the little spaghetti and bread that my sister brought, we shared these altogether and enjoyed each other’s company while reminiscing Mom’s memories. After we prayed, we went ahead to our cousin’s wedding dinner party.

All the while, we thought that it was just a small dinner with only us as their visitors. but we were surprised to see that they rented a function hall with at least 100 guests and an eat-all-you-can Kapampangan and Japanese buffet! What a treat! And while eating, I told my Ate, “this is how Mommy would like to celebrate her 60th if she is still here”. Tama nga, my sister agreed.

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As I ponder today’s events, I realized that there will always be something greater to anything that we have planned or dreamed of. That things will always BE ENOUGH for all our needs. And that love begins at home, with our families. These realizations made me more grateful to God who allowed me to reflect on these. :)

Mom, it was supposed to be your 60th. But even if you’re not here to celebrate it with us, we still continue to thank the Lord for the life you lead and this is our greatest reason why we never stopped celebrating your birthday – a reminder for us of your love and passion for life and for the Lord. Thank you Mom for this day. And thank you God for my Mommy and my family.

And congratulations to the newlyweds, Kuya John and Ate Mira Arceo! Isa lang masasabi ko…. FINALLY! :)